Category: fear

Sadly, I posted this a little over three years ago, after the mass shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary School, where 6 staff members, and 20 children were gunned down. I say “Sadly” because with such a horrific loss of innocent life, you would think America would wake up and realize there is something wrong with it.

But it didn’t… since I feel the need to repost this. 


“Words offer the means to meaning, and for those who will listen, the enunciation of truth. And the truth is, there is something terribly wrong with this country, isn’t there?” V from “V for Vendetta


I’d say what happened in Newtown, Connecticut was a tragedy, that it was heart-breaking and… well, no words could truly describe it, or how those families feel. It is beyond words.

But this kind of thing has happened before. Aurora. Columbine. Virgina State. Someone with weapons, made solely to kill other people, enters a place and start shooting at innocent people, teens, children, families.

I’m a big fan of America. But thankfully, I don’t live there. As the quote from “V for Vendetta” states, there is something terribly wrong with you, America. Your allies see it, but you don’t. So, this is my simple attempt to show you what we, your allies, see. It may not amount to much, but it’s how people deal with these kind of events. They talk with hopes of understanding. But more importantly, they listen.

Adam Lanza was just a kid himself. 20 years old. Yet something within him was wrong. He was angry, frustrated, possessed? We may never know. Yet to take his mother’s guns, kill her, then drive to a school and gun-down children who had nothing to do with him is monstrous. But the cold, hard truth of it is, if his mother didn’t have those weapons, he may have only killed her and himself.

Reports and interviews with people who knew Adam tell of an intelligent kid, if a little quiet, fidgety, and not a fan of attention. He was socially uncomfortable, but, according to the bus driver, he was really nice and well-behaved. Most of those traits describe me as a teen, as they probably do for millions of other kids across North America. Yet, something in his life drove him to kill.

Reports also indicate that Adam’s mother, Nancy, was a “survivalist”. News reports state she was stockpiling food and weapons for the eventual collapse of the economy. Perhaps her mentality had an effect on Adam, as he was home-schooled after she pulled him out of Newtown School because she was unhappy with school district’s plans for her son. Perhaps if he had remained in the school system, he may have turned out differently, received help that might have prevented the shootings.

It is all conjecture at this point. The truth may never come out. But Adam’s methods, his means to the end, were concrete.

Adam used a Bushmaster .223, a semi-automatic rifle. He also had two automatic pistols on him, but he preferred the rifle, because it was made to kill people. It holds 30 rounds/ bullets, and authorities reported he had a “very large quantity of unused ammunition at the school”. According to the website that has a great deal on The Bushmaster, it is “… great for 3 Gun Match shooting, home defense and law enforcement use.” Home defense?! Against who? A horde of zombies?! A rogue biker gang terrorizing your town?! What the fuck!

Although I’m not a fan of hunting, there is a huge difference between a hunting rifle, and a semi-automatic assault rifle. How such functioning weapons are accessible for public purchase and use is mind-boggling.

Wait. Can you hear that? The sound of the NRA, the gun-lobbyists, and dumbass rednecks touting the 2nd Amendment? Well, let’s just look at that shall we…

According to the current wording of the 2nd Amendment, it states…

“A well-regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed.”

Now remember when this amendment was originally put into the Bill of Rights, back in 1791, 221 years ago! A few things have changed since the 2nd Amendment was passed. Originally, it was heavily influenced by the English Bill of Rights from 1689, which was derived from conflicts between Catholics and Protestants. American settlers believed such an amendment was important for numerous reasons, including: Deterring undemocratic government, repelling invasion, suppressing insurrection, facilitating a natural right of self-defense, participating in law enforcement, and enabling the people to organize a militia system.

Now, lets look at those reason through the lens of time shall we…

“Deterring undemocratic government”: Back then, America had just become free and didn’t want to repeat what Britain had done to them. These days, Joe and Jane Q. Public have more problems with employment and debt than a government being undemocratic.

“Repelling Invasions”: All the guns in America didn’t stop 9/11 now did it. Thus, this reason is out-dated, since a land invasion is highly unlikely, unless it’s in a movie (Red Dawn, Invasion U.S.A.).

“Suppressing Insurrection”: Well, since those Occupy New York people are still alive, you can scratch that reason, cause that’s the closest to insurrection this country is gonna get.

“Facilitating a Natural Right of Self-Defense”: Back then, that meant a musket, or a flint-lock rifle. And they were protecting themselves from bandits and natives. They had no concept of a single rifle that could shoot 30 rounds, or even pistols! Out-dated.

“Participating in Law-Enforcement”: It ain’t the old West anymore folks. No one deputizes farmers to go after a bandit or natives. Out-dated.

“Enabling the People to Organize a Militia System”: Really? A country that has the largest military might in the world needs to enable people to organize a militia system? Sooo out-dated!

Believe it or not, I’m not anti-gun. There are people out there who know the seriousness of owning a gun. True gun collectors, who know the dangers of such a hobby, and take all the necessary precautions to ensure their guns are stored safely. Nor am I talking about hunters who have a handful, or less, of rifles, and have been taught from a young age to respect the power of a rifle.

Let me make myself perfectly clear…

This blog is directed at the people clinging to the 2nd Amendment, despite its antiquated purpose. It is just an excuse for ignorant, frightened people to own mini weapons of mass destruction as a form of “protection” against make-believe, or potential threat that lurks within all people, according to fear-mongering media outlets (IE: Fox News). These are the people who have no concept of the power they possess, or the harm that can be done. The same people who would rather lose their homes and die penniless than use a socialist system of healthcare, are the same close-minded, out-dated people who keep spouting off about the right to bear arms like it still means something. It doesn’t, not like it did 200-plus years ago.  They are the same people who say “What happened is a tragedy, BUT…”. Anyone who says that has an agenda that goes against the rights of the families who lost loved ones for no reason, and every other person who doesn’t want to get shot dead. The people this blog is directed at only care about themselves. If there was a group of people who should be kicked out of a country, it is them. They don’t give a shit about anyone, especially a bunch of kids gunned down in a school in Connecticut.

What we all saw on November 13th in Paris was the result of hatred.

What we start to hear after that day, despite the resolute bravery and hope, is fear.


Hatred by one group, ISIL in this case, lead to individuals to act, resulting in the deaths of 120+ people who had nothing to do with the conflict occurring in Syria and its neighboring countries. But that is what terrorism is, hatred within some that drives them to do something irrational, brutal, and inhuman upon people who want nothing more than to live their lives. To meet up with friends, see a rock band, enjoy the beauty that is Paris.

The hatred by this group stems from the continual bombardment of western ideals, and pop culture into a society that doesn’t want anything to do with it. While many embrace the use of social media and consumerism iconography, others want them, and anyone welcoming such, to be destroyed. They think it deteriorates their own beliefs, corrupts them, and makes them weak in the eyes of their god and religion.

I see a problem with those thoughts, and the example that came to mind was the Amish. There are approximately 300,000 Amish living in Canada and America. The majority of them continue to follow their traditional beliefs, which include a simple, farming society, avoiding most of the distractions of the 20th century. Some how, they have managed to live, and prosper, within countries that are continually overwhelmed by social media, TV, movies, and all the things that those in ISIL say is part of the destruction of their beliefs. I have yet to hear of Amish terrorists attacking average Canadian or American people in the name of their religion. Does that mean Amish people are stronger than those following ISIL? By my simple-minded logic, it would appear so.

That is the problem with any extremist religious group. They are intolerant by design. They hold so strongly to their beliefs that they are unwilling to be flexible, or at the very least, ignore things they don’t agree with. This mentality leads to hatred, which grows to the point that they feel the need to act, forcing their beliefs onto others, through violence and subjugation. Although The Westboro Baptist church and the Church of Scientology have yet to use violence in their doctrine, there is already subjugation, and the promotion of hatred. Who is to say, under the right leadership, that they too could become something more frightful.

Many of wonder what could drive people to murder so many innocent people. The answer is sad, and simple; hatred. The inflexible belief in something, and a need to either turn others to your way of thinking, or to eliminate those that will not agree with you. Until that kind of close-minded, ignorance is abolished, there will always be people hurting and killing others.


During the chaotic aftermath of the events in Paris, one piece of news about one of the attackers seemed to get more play than others. A Syrian passport was discovered near the body of one of the attackers, indicating that he came in through Greece. A post on Facebook commented that Canada was about to let 25,000 Syrian terrorists in, and that the country would feel what France felt.

It is times like these that cowardly, fearful people express the worst in themselves and humanity, from anti-Islamic pictures on Facebook, to drafting “Patriot Acts” to protect them and their “old-school” citizens.

Not to sound redundant, but fear can be a scary thing. It can shake our beliefs, question our choices, and wonder if everything we have stood for is built on poor foundations. It can make us think and say ridiculous, bigoted, racist things. Even when we cover it in humour, that grain of ignorance is planted. Those who are still impressionable and innocent may not understand what is said, but they begin to think that such thoughts are ok, even understandable.Like any good religious zealot, they manipulate, many unknowingly, images and sayings that they claim are not bigoted or racist, but in truth, are. Deep down, fear my make them stand-up for their misguided beliefs, even if a part of them my wonder if they even believe what they are saying.

Fear makes weaklings of us all. No one is immune to fear. We like to believe we are stronger, but no matter what, fear will get a grip on us. How long it holds on to us is another matter. The best way to defeat fear is with an open mind, compassion, and a willingness to listen when even your own judgement tells you not to. If you think I’m mentioning this because I have overcome it? No, I haven’t. I can be just as ignorant at times as anyone else. Fortunately, knowing my failings helps.

It is easier to hate someone and react out of fear, than to accept someone and react out of love. Thankfully, the people of France, and millions of people around the world, have shown that hatred and fear can be fought with love and compassion.

In the end, all you need is love.

Chapter TK

Question Everything


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Kate Heartfield

writer and editor

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